a message from a lost lonely soul

Dear Sir, dear miss, dear Mme;
Please read the following letter until the end because may be it's the last letter I can write. I will try here to tell you the hole story about that small child inside me who couldn't until now find a peaceful home and a loving and supportive mother. Right now, I am writing this letter and my hands are trembling. My name is Mohamed Ali. I am 29 years old. I am Tunisian and I belong to a rural place in the western north of the country. Since several years, I am suffering from a long term psychic disease called " Bipolar emotional disorder " . In fact, I am so sick and I am suffering alone because I have no friends no girl friend no wife, even my family and my relatives abandoned me.
Dear reader, I want to tell you that I am living in two completely different worlds: the world of my dreams-that world that I go to often through my abundant imagination-that world that I really love so much, and the other world-the world of reality that I hate so much-that terrible world (a world that I really don't belong to because people there are so strange, so mysterious that I can't unlock their codes and I can't deal with their materialism and their earthy values. But, I find sometimes a peaceful refuge on writing. Eventually, when I feel so excited (so sad or so happy), I write diaries (I mean so sad diaries). But no one reads them and this unfair act kills me one thousand of times aday, because an extremely powerful energy- of so flaming feelings that I experience when writing- still only on that old sad paper.
May be, the most thing I need and I will ever need is to find someone who can tell me bravely and with a great sense of humanity : ((" Don't worry, every thing will be OK, my dear genius DALI, because I'm here with you and I will never let a brother in humanity back...It's a promise; I will sing for you when you feel desespered, I will take you in my arms and I will close you to my warm chest when you feel sad, I will tell so beautiful fairy tales when you feel bored and I will support you and listen to you when you tell me the most crazy ideas ever. It's a promise, I will do my best to keep you always safe and at peace...")).
Dear reader, hold your breath because I am going to tell you about the most bad and terrible incident that happened in my life : I logged twice in Tunis hospital of psychiatric diseases. And people around and all my relatives are treating me as a crazy man. Sincerely, I feel so much shame and dishonor of these people who can't distinguish between craziness and genius. I swear one thousand of times that all words of all languages can never describe that terrible tragedy that these people caused to me. And that small child inside me is crying since several years, he is lonely desespered and completely lost and he is looking for home (I mean a place where he can feel safe and completely at peace)..Dear reader, I want to tell you also that I am really genius and I can proove you that through all intelligence tests that you want. PS: I passed my Baccalaureate with a good mention. And I studied two years of a preparatory cycle (Biology-Geology) with a good mention also. Then I left university because of psychic problems and problems concerning my family.
Right now, I am jobless and I live alone in a small studio since two years. I want to tell you that this winter, the weather is so cold in Tunisia and I don't have even enough clothes that make me feel warm. And I am wondering all time if I am going to feel warm next winter, if my completely sad and desepered heart will feel warmth, if my lost lonely soul will find a peaceful home and if that small child inside me who still crying will find his loving and supportive mother next winter, or not...
Dear reader, just one other thing that I want to tell you : First, I am so interested in human and personal developpement field especially life planning, law of attraction, human energy and the universal laws. I read many books about this field and I have many written notes that can be very useful for writing a successful book about personal developpement(may be a best selling book). An other interesting thing, I know exactly where I am going; In fact, I have a detailed and written plan about my future life ( This plan contains my life mission and my strategic goals that I want deeply to accomplish before dying. You have to know that my life mission is about spreading peace allover the world.) .Dear reader, just one other thing you have to know; I can deal with letters and numbers so much better than dealing with people. And if you want to understand well and feel the hole story about me, please watch carefully the next two movies : "a beautiful mind" (Hollywood production) and " Kyon Kee" (Bollywood production)...Sir/miss/Mme, I really appreciate that...From the deepest inside of my sad lonely heart, thank you infinitely for reading this message...God bless all of you..
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